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*Every once in awhile, a girl has to indulge herself*

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gemini, gemini [03 Apr 2007|08:36pm]

My life changes so much. im still at my job (well, in a different department) which all sort of transpired from a conversation with a coworker, okay, a hot coworker who fed me bullshit while i was drinking. Then i began to freak out over money, because i am still living paycheck to paycheck, and i decided to stay in a whirlwind of weeklong events. im a lot happier in my new role, so hopefully it will stay that way.

I also realised how SICK i am of being lied to by boys. id rather you tell me you were an arrogant fuck than tell me i was beautiful. maybe then id believe you and want to date you. i live, i learn, o date more boys who are wrong for me. whatever.

i am also learning who my true friends are, it really sucks to see friendships slip away, people breaking plans, etc., etc. i thought people would be over drama, but apparently it will never go away in my life.

ok, im tired of writing.

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[23 Jan 2006|12:31pm]

So yeah- ill update about the weekend in a sec-

Im looking for another job again. Seems like this is a recurring thing. I really feel like im worth more than what im making and what i am doing, bottom line, and after sme conversations i had this week, i know i am. Im debating just putting in my 2 weeks on friday (i had a job interview this morning) but my cash flow isnt so good. but i do know how hard it is to actively search with a current job to make interviews. Im taking control of my financial future- after the cc's cut up, getting a higher paying job is what i need, with a tuition reimbursement program so i can go back and get a masters. thats that- ill keep u updated.

oh yeah, chad=BIG JERK. One more to add to the asshole list. shocker there.

friday i didnt know what i was gunna end up doing, but then bill and them came into town!! I have so much fun with all of them always- they make me smile and it was totally what i needed that day. going out to the bars was so fun :)

sat me and mindy went out to rockford to see one of matts games---fun times, had some drinlks and spent too much money, but it was good times. I thought this weekend would tell me if i still liked him like i used to, but i didnt even get the stomach flip. Thats how i judge everything, the stomach flip. Nothing happened, and i didnt really want it to. im not making a move in this situation. maybe down the road, but who knows. well see at the rascal flatts concert, when every time i hear bless the broken road i think about him, and then hell be right next to me. boys boys boys

ww is still going ok- havent been as on par as i was at one point- stress really gets to you in every aspect of your life. im gunna start bringing pilates back into my routine as well.

im on a downward hill right now- just trying to stay positive. things should look up soon.

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[15 Dec 2004|03:50pm]

Just FYI everyone, I am now making my journal "Friends Only"...so comment if u want to be added. :) P.S. Everyone who was already a friend before now is still there :)

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[15 Nov 2004|12:58pm]

I only really want to see a few of these, and i have not seen many. Im so happy finding nemo is there though, hehehehe :-)

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[14 Aug 2004|02:41pm]

Well---I haven't made a public update in awhile. I have been feeling eh, lately. Not much has been going on, I am just counting down the days till I go back to school. Never would I have thought I would be doing that. I can't wait, seriously. I got my football tickets in the mail, and came to the realisation I will not be going to band camp for the first time in 6 years. But i am ok with that, really. Getting the worries of band out of my life, and especially of my coach, will be good for me.

I have set a goal for myself for the next semester. TO make the Dean's list. I don't even really know its GPA, but I am determined. Nothing less than a 3.0 in any class, because my last 60 credit hour GPA is just slightly above 3.0 (like 3.02), and i have to have it higher than a 3.0 to get into the grad school i want to go to. My #1 choice is to go to DC, and #2 is Boston. And with Boston, I have been keeping up w/ the Red Sox games everyday, I have become an even bigger fan of them as it is getting close to the playoffs, and i cant wait!!! And if the world series ends up in St. Louis, Erica might be able to get me tickets, and seriously, thats another one of my dreams is to go to a World Series baseball game.

Other than that, not much else has happened on my week off. I spent a lot of time with Erica because she leaves Thursday, *tear*. I went unexpectedly to Lansing thursday night, and had fun. Bill, u may not even remember what you told me, but you pretty much made my day, and even my week. You told me something that i really needed to hear, and I wanted to say thank you.

Im just watching the Olympics now, because I love them. Tonight is the saying goodbye to 1234 party. That place is like my 2nd home, its so sad. Anyways, im out now, and have a good day :)

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[06 Aug 2004|06:20pm]

Thanx chinese_rain for the awesome icon!!! I love bb5 :) and im so glad scott is gone!

AND WORK IS OVER FOR THE SUMMER!!!!!! YES!!!!!!

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[05 Aug 2004|10:35am]

[ mood | annoyed ]

The last 2 days have not been great, at all. I have worked, and have just lost any energy to go out and do things.

Yesterday, my sister had an emergency for me to go pick her up in Lansing, because she was stranded. I went and got her at 1:30, and was back home at about 5, just in time to go to dale carnegie. wrong. My car stopped working, AGAIN. The fuckers at sterling care care when they fixed my water pump, appaerntly really didnt, because my car started smoking again, this time worse, the brake light went on, i started squealing, and i had to pull over on 696, scared out of my mind. We had to get it towed, and its in the shop again. AAA was rude to us, all my dad di was put me down in the car, and it just sucks. I did have a fun night w/erica last night, and we both cannot wait for the twin twist to be revealed tonight. TOmorrow is my last day of work. Ill be more excited when i can actually say its over.

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My 100 Truths [01 Aug 2004|10:03pm]

***edited at bottom :)**

I feel compelled to do this too:

1) I have never been in love.
2) I am obsessed with watching reality tv, especially Survivor/Big Brother/Amazing Race/American Idol.
3) I am very unhappy with my body, but never have the energy to exercise.
4) I have a problem with shopping and buying things I cannot afford.
5) I have about 7 credit cards.
6) I want John Kerry to win the election.
7) I have a fear of commitment to a guy, because i fear getting hurt.
8) I have had one broken heart, and it took me a long time to get over.
9) I don't trust straight guys as far as I can throw them.
10) I wish when a guy talked to me, he would look at my eyes, not my chest.
11) I hate public displays of affection, they make me want to vomit.
12) I am planning on leaving the state of Michigan when i graduate.
13) My sister is the most important person in my life.
14) I miss my mother every day.
15) I want my dad to be happy and find a normal, loving woman who i can love too.
16) My aunt jackie is the strongest woman alive.
17) Going abroad to australia was the best decision of my life, and the happiest i have ever been.
18) I wish i could just be thinner sometimes, because i think my life would be easier.
19) I want to go to paris.
20) My doggy never fails to cheer me up.
21) I want to live on the waterfront, in a beach house.
22) I never want to have another one-night stand because they leave me feeling so empty inside.
23) I feel like my wilder days are ending.
24) Hawaii was one of the strangest, but funnest weeks of my life.
25) I will always have a thing for guys in the military. ;)
26) I wish 719 Packard still had parties, those were the best house parties i ever went to.
27) Joing AGD and marching band are the only 2 things that kept me at michigan.
28) I dont really like the city of ann arbor, besides michigan stadium.
29) I want to go to Mardi Gras for my senior year, and last :( spring break.
30) I want to be an fbi agent when i finish school.
31) I got straight a's my whole life, till u of m bit me in the ass.
32) I want to have a flat stomach.
33) I wish i could run a mile.
34) I love knowing that i have had my best friend in my life for almost 10 years, and we still can tell each other anything.
35) I am not a romantic at all.
36) I don;t believe in solemates.
37) I dont really think i am good at anything, from sports to school, i feel like i am always inferior.
38) Seeing all this low carb stuff makes me want to vomit because its so annoying and people are gullible.
39) I am an extremely independent person who doesnt mind spending time alone.
40) I think everything happens for a reason, but i dont think i will ever know the reason.
41) I do believe God has a plan for my life.
42) I want to become a stronger Christian.
43) I don't get the fact that some people cannot be happy without a significant other in their life, and sometimes i think its pathetic.
44) If i have kids, i dont want girls.
45) I live for world series baseball, and college football.
46) In order the teams i cannot stand are 1)ohio state 2)NY yankees 3)la lakers
47) Performing in the rose bowl parade for the michigan wolverines was one of my lifelong dreams come true
48) I hate being stressed out.
49) I fear not getting into a grad school where i want to go.
50) I will never miss high school, not now, and not ever.
51) I was made fun of for being overweight during elementary school and junior high and would never wish that upon any other person.
52) I am very shy, and i wish i wasnt.
53) I tend to hold back a lot.
54) I never felt like i was accepted in junior high and elementary school, when girls would ask why i was hanging around them. I then said screw them and trying to be popular, and met my best friend :) i wish other people would learn that lesson too.
55) I never went to a "high school" party
56) I had my first shot of alcohol at my house, when i was 17, and some pennas people stopped over. I got drunk off 2 shots and a mikes.
57) I hated my high school prom, and it was one of the lonliest nights of my life. I felt pretty, but miserable at the same time, and spent prom night w/my dad.
58) I had mono at my high school graduation, and was too sick to go to the all night party
59) I wish my metabolism was faster.
60) I hate Nextel phones and that damn beeping noise. its one of my biggest pet peeves.
61) The next car i buy will be yellow and sporty.
62) I never want to be so wasted again that i forget pieces of the night and have no decision making skills.
63) I hate how friendships change as you grow older and find a career.
64) I wish girls didnt have to dress like sluts to feel pretty.
65) I also dont like it when people fish for compliments.
66) Boys, never bleach or highlight your hair and then spike it up and gel it in the front. Its not attractive.
67) I will be the girl who will choose the game over the chick flick.
68) I wish i could sing.
69) I am very uncoordinated.
70) I cannot say words like martin and fenton correctly.
71) i luved geography as a child
72) i am not a morning person, at all.
73) I dont like people who are closed minded and wont listen to other peoples opinions.
74) I wish i never had to worry about money ever again.
75) i never want to have a boring 9-5 job that i hate.
76) I can never tell my grandmother that i dont go to catholic church anymore.
77) I wish i had more self-confidence
78) I think my worst quality is my pessimism, which is S-L-O-W-L-Y getting better
79) I want to be on the Amazing race or big brother, or the mole if it comes back.
80) Mystery books are my favorite to read.
81) I love movies that keep me on the edge of my seat.
82) I want to learn how to do hair better.
83) I love wearing formal wear.
84) I miss the color guard days of stevenson, and the smile that was on my face when we did the sex dance in 10th grade, and all the kicklines, and i wish i could have had that much fun performing at michigan.
85) I will cherish every time i ran out of the michigan tunnel doing entries on saturday mornings.
86) I have never felt more pain than my second day of band week in the mmb.
87) Being around gay boys makes me smile, because they make me feel good about myself.
88) I love sleeping.
89) Being 21 isnt as fun as i thought it would be, as opposed to being 18 in mexico, and 19 in canada.
90) Tequila makes me wanna vomit.
91) Sometimes i'll refuse to go out at night if a good reality show is on, like i did in australia with survivor all stars.
92) I want to dance to butterfly kisses with my dad at my wedding.
93) I love the color pink.
94) im so glad i decided to take dale carnegie, as it is making me gow into a better person.
95) I criticise a lot, but am trying to fix it.
96) I wish my sister would stop taking clothes from my room and not returning them.
97) Someday, i want to meet colby from survivor.
98) I think the coolest job ever would be the people who get to think up, and test the challenges on survivor.
99) I still think about holly a lot, and how her life ended so soon.
100) I have learned how to deal with death, and grieving, and have learned to appreciate the people in my life, because you never know how long they will be there. Thank you to everyone who has entered my life and impacted it, because you have shaped who i am today.

100 plus truths:
101) I am obsessed with Sex and the City and I usually can find an episode where it relates exactly to my life, and am in love with so many of the quotes from that show. I also own ever seasons dvd.
102) The hottest boy, and best kisser, I ever kissed was this guy Ben who was in the navy, that I met my freshman year on spring break in Puerto Vallerta Mexico. *sigh*
103) "Sex on the beach" will never have the same meaning to me ever again because of that trip, and no, it is not what you are thinking.
104) I had so much more confidence when I was thinner, but dont think i realised that until now.
105) THe first time I was ever told I was beautiful was from Mike Cuellar on New Years Eve 2001, in my black formal gown. It was one of the times in my life where I have felt best about myself
106) I don't usually believe guys who tell me i am pretty, cuz i think they have ulterior motives, and 9 times out of 10 i have been right.
107) I love pictures more than any other possession, because it lets you go back in time.
108) Being skinny only keeps you happy on the inside for so long.
109) I miss the Me, Christine, and Rebecca days of partying.
110) Armageddon will always make me cry, because of the scene with liv tyler saying goodbye to her dad on the tv, and i think thats why i love i dont wanna miss a thing so much.
111) Pearl harbor almost made me join the military because i wanted to meet more military boys.
112) There you'll be- by faith hill always makes me happy when I hear it.
113) I went bungee jumping and whitewater rafting in australia, and was scared shitless during both of them, but loved them to death!
114) An incident happened in Australia that taught me the biggest life lesson I have learned so far, but i rarely talk about it.
115) The milkshake song makes me smile because i think of australia, mostly of mark.
116) Out of the long list of guys i have hooked up with, i've had real emotional feelings for 1. That shows you how scared i really am.
117) My most "romantic" moment ever was on New Years Eve 2001, when I had my first kiss at midnight at our band party.
118) I actually miss getting "looks" from guys, as shallow as that sounds.
119) I love "The Rose" as it reminds me of my sisters.
121) I have taken diet pills several times.
122) Joan probably was the cause for much of my unhappiness and depression at U of M. I strongly despise that woman, and I dont respect her abilities as a coach. She's the main reason I dont want to come back to band, because she made it not fun.
123) The best advice someone once gave me was "You cant love someone else till you love yourself" and i think thats one of the reasons why i have never been in love.
124) To fit in my "skinny jeans" would make me so happy.
125) I am extremely emotional.
126) I do not have very many straight guy friends, at all. I think in my deranged mind that guys dont want to be my friend because i am not a skinny girl, and because all my friends are.
127) I cant believe I wanted to write more than 100 truths, and im done now.

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[01 Aug 2004|01:48am]

i dyed my hair back to dark brown, im sick of the 50 colors and blonde in my hair. I love new colors!

Lewis Black the comedian was so funny tonite! Thanx beth for a great evening!!!

k- bedtime now :)

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My "reality" [30 Jul 2004|01:20pm]

LOL- last night made me laugh. After watching Big Brother 5, and the very ditzy Holly get kicked off, the head of household competition was one of those 'hold this thing for however long in an uncomfortable position' things. So, i got out my laptop, and me and keka set up the live feed and watched intently. It made me laugh so hard, and i wondered how many people were doing the same thing we were. I woke up at 5:30am, just by accident, and turned it on again, and it was down to this girl diane who's trying to get w/drew and jase, the stupis conceited pink wearing boy. I found out this morning that Diane won, cuz Jase f'ed up. It made my day.

Anyways, saturday im going to this comedy thing at meadowbrook w/beth who i havent seen since ddr night :) Dont know what else ill be doing this last weekend before i am free from work. I kinda want to go see Boyz II Men at freedom hill on SUnday, they were my favorite back in the day and the 1st cd i ever bought. If anyones interested lawn seats are only $20.

K thats it i think. Yay for today being payday!

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[29 Jul 2004|12:06pm]

So.. AMERICAN IDOL concert last night was awesome! I forgot how much i missed those voices. George was so cute, Latoya blew me away, and John Stevens actually sounded good. I was sad Diana hurt her foot, so she couldnt do the show. Is is weird that i wasnt excited to see the actual American Idol? Her song "believe' that she ended with, i dont like the way she sings it, i like it w/Diana better. But, anyways, really good concert, everyone sounded amazing.

I HATE car repair people. My water pump had to be replaced, so i was carless yesterday, and when i picked it up, my AC was broken, so now i have to take it back again. Damn sterling care care.

6 days left of work after today! Yay! Then 3 weeks till i go back to school, and i can hardle wait. Today is 1 month exactly till i move back in, so i am putting myself on a 30 day boot camp beginning tomorrow. Its now or never, and with working, i just didnt have time to do all the things i wanted, so thats part of the reason i am ending work early. Yay!

Another thing that has been on my mind is this election. 4 years ago, i wanted Bush to be in office. What the hell was I thinking? 4 years have gone by, and i could not stand for him to win again. Never in amillion years would i have imagined i would vote for a democrat, but this is the day. I really am going to dedicate myself to the campaign when i go back to ann arbor, join college dems, and im taking a class on the presidency. I like the quote from kekas journal about fearing the next 4 years if he gets re-elected. I know people have differing opinions about this, but i am going to need a job, health insurance and a feeling that i can trust our president when i graduate, and just think if Bush gets re-elected, and appoints very conservative justices to the court as 3 justices are planning to retire, and our rights are taken away. I'm going to stop writing about this now, but im just very passionate about it at this moment.
*Kerry/Edwards 2004*

Ok, I'm done now--- Watch Big Brother 5 tonite!! I hope ditzy Holly goes home, seriously.

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[28 Jul 2004|12:21pm]

Name : Amanda
*. nicknames : Mandy, Mandiferous, Mandifer, Meemer
*. hair color : Brown
*. eye color : Brown
*. height : 5'8''
*. writing hand : Right

do you bite your nails : yes
can you roll your tongue : yep
can you raise one eyebrow at a time : no, im uncoordinated
can you blow smoke rings: no, dont smoke ever
can you blow spit bubbles : yes
can you cross your eyes: dont think so
colored hair: yes, since like 6th grade
tattoos and where : 2, sun on lower back, little moon and star a little above that
piercing and where: 2 in each ear, cartilage closed up, took out belly cuz i hated it
do you make your bed daily: me, never
what goes on first bra or underwear : underwear usually
which shoe goes on first : which ever one I grab
speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone : yes of course
how much money is usually in your wallet? : no more than $20 at a time cuz money got stolen once
what jewelry do you wear : my opal ring, watch, necklace occasionally, and my white gold guardian angel bracelet
whats sexiest on a guy: definitely smile, and shoulders
whats sexiest on a girl: personality
would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great : on time, being late bugs me like whoa
do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it : twirl
how many cereals are in your cabinet : none right now, we need special k and berries
what utensils do you use eating pizza : fingers, dip in ranch
do you cook : not very well at all, pasta is about it

GROOMiNG

how often do you brush your teeth : once or twice a day
how often do you shower/bathe : once a day
how long do these showers last : 10 minutes max
hair drying method : the air, i usually scrunch and go
do you paint your nails : its called a manicure cuz i cant keep polish on my nails
do you swear : yes, too much
do you mumble to yourself : yes, usually yelling obscenities at drivers
do you spit in public : no
do you have any regrets: i do, but i cant do anything about it, so i dont dwell onit
whats in your cd player: My Booty Mix that i need to update
person you talk most on the phone with : probably playing phone tag w/Bri, im not a huge phone talker
what color is your bedroom: pink and teal feather dusted walls, w/lots of maize and blue too :)
do you use an alarm clock : have to
name one thing or person you're obsessed with: Survivor, Amazing Race, Big Brother aka reality strategy tv
have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex: yes
ever sunbathed in the nude: yes, in australia :
window seat or aisle : window, definitely, to rest my head and see the view
whats your sleeping position: on my side, curled up
what kind of bed do you like : soft, like a featherbed
do you snore : nope, unless its allergy season

do you sleepwalk: i dont think so
do you talk in your sleep : not sure
do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no, i would throw it, i dont like it
how about the light on : i can sleep w/lights on no problemdo you fall asleep with the tv or radio on :tv, i fall asleep with it on, i like the noise

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU

had sex: i prefer not to talk about that experience for good reason.
were kissed or kissed someone: jeez, spin the bottle in australia on the beach :)
watched bambi : i try to avoid that movie
cried : at the end of amazing race last night, yes i am a dork
talked on the phone: about 20 minutes ago to keka
read a book : on the plane ride home from myrtle beach, 'Grosse Pointe Girl'- pretty funny
got a compliment: at Dale Carnegie last Wednesday

MUSiC

is music important to you : yes, it describes my moods and cheers me up
do you sing? : not very well at all, i try though
what instruments do you play?: clarinet, my flag
what do you think of Eminem : not hot, and i dislike his music

DO YOU LiKE

pop music : Yes, for the most part
rock music : only Aerosmith
punk music : some, love Simple Plan and Blink 182
rap music : gotta have my booty music
country : yes, im a new fan and LOVE IT TO DEATH!
jazz : no, not at all
classical : some, like that we would play in band
what is one band/singer you like that no one has heard of? : Shannon Noll- Australian idol runner up
your word : mart-enn

ABC'S

A - Act your age : mostly older than my age
B - Born on what day of the week : cant benumber
C - Chore you hate : cleaning the bathroom
D - Dad's name?: Ken
E - Essential makeup item?: concealer
G - Gold or silver? : white gold to be precise
H - Hometown? : sterling heights
I - Ice cream? : mint chocolate chip
J - Job title? : Typist Clerk 1
K - Kids? : none, not for a long while
L - Living arrangements? : home till AUgust 29, then the Alpha Gamma Delta House at U of M for my last year :)
M - Mom's name? : Mary Kay
N - Number of people you've slept with? you can count them on one hand
O - Overnight hospital stays? : none
P - Phobia? : snakes, somewhat of heights
Q - Quote you like? : "Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you only have one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do"
R - Religious affiliation? :was baptized catholic, but i consider myself Christian, haven't quite figured out a specific denomination that i believe in yet
S- Siblings? : 1 sis Erica
T - Time you wake up? : 7:15 for work, like 10:30 ish any other day
U - Unique habit? : watching Sex and the City and Eating Sour Skittles when I am feeling down
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? : green peppers, yuck
W - Worst habit? : being over-critical
X - X-rays you've had? : teeth, spine, foot
Y - Yummy food you make?: like i said, pasta is it, or taco salad
Z - Zodiac Sign? : Gemini

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Threesomes, the rabbit, and babies [27 Jul 2004|02:19pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

thought i would start this up again because i have no means of transportation right now and am hence bored....my Sex and the City obsession with typing the computer question she asks, and the quote that ends the show (because ive gotten new friends since then) and other fun episode quotes... and oh yeah, MY CAR STARTED SMOKING TODAY!!!! BOO!!!! It has to go get fixed.

Episode 8- 3s a crowd

?: Were threesomes the new sexual frontier?
Final: The real appeal of a threesome, its easy. Its intimacy thats the bitch.

kind of a crappy quote episode

***********************************************************************************
Episode 9- The turtle and the hare
?: In a city of great expectations, is it time to settle for what you can get?

Final: My Zen teacher also said: the only way to true happiness is to live in the moment and not worry about the future. Of course, he died penniless and single

************************************************************************************
Episode 10- The Baby Shower
*So help me, she f*cks on my couch she buys it*

*Look at her: the poster girl for low self esteem.
Miranda: You know, I have low self esteem, but I express it the healthy way—by eating a box of Double Stuf Oreos*

?: What was still buried deep inside the mommy downstairs? (dumb and useless ?)
Final: On the way home, i got my period (even dumber)

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[27 Jul 2004|12:21pm]

Home from Myrtle beach :) It was sooo hot down there, but i enjoyed myself. Our first family vacation in about 6 years. Our villa was amazing, looked just like the one in West palm beach, and we had a view of the atlantic ocean. SO pretty!! It was a relaxing weekend, but it was hard to lie by the pool for more than 10 minutes without overheating. We went to this Carolina Opry show, which was a variety show w/country music, broadway music and comedy. We also went to the waterpark and went on this way cool slide where u spin around this toilet bowl type thing. We went on a rollercoaster and ate at a lot of yummy seafood restaurants, and spent a lot of time at the Broadway at the Beach Pavillion. Of course there were disagreements, but when are there not. I am thankful for the time I got to spend with my family. OH, and if i have a new annoyance, its those stupid frilly skirts i saw EVERYWHERE down there on teenagers. They got so annoying to look at, and for that matter, i will never ever buy one.

Summer is almost over, and I am thankful. This has been the longest summer of my life, beginning on March 17th. I'm ready to be back at school, my last year, and am setting a goal for myself: to make the Dean's list for one semester. No band to distract me (and the shows this year look dumb anyways) and im going to focus like i have never focused before, so i can go to a great grad school and get a job i like. Only 8 days left of this stupid summer job. Then a few weeeks of freedom and fun and relaxation.

Sorry, i feel obligated to post this too :)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain and it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this in your lj and see what I say about you

P.S. Drew's on tv tonite :)

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*Time for some southern hospitality* [22 Jul 2004|11:16pm]

Going to Myrtle Beach tomorrow, flight leaves at 7am...gone till Monday nite late. Wahoo!!! The weather should be just smoking hot down there, but I cant wait!!

I got really happy this week because I looked into grad schools at the library, and there are definitely some I can get into...thank you MSU for 12 credits of 4.0!!! The top prospect is American U in Washington DC, then some schools in Chicago, but im gunna apply everywhere near a big city.

P.S. Straight boys should NEVER wear pink. So unattractive. Scott and Jase made me want to vomit tonight looking at them. What straight guys dress as twins in pink??? Idiots. My boyfriend is HOH this week :) except that kinda sucks. Oh well, I'll be sure to watch it saturday on vacation w/keka :)

Went to Olive garden w/brittany tonight, and we saw like 10 fifteen year old whores, all dressed in those stupid short frilly skirts. Once again, I wanted to vomit.

Advice of the day: If you are a guy, and straight, do not wear pink, and if you are a 15 year old girl, dont dress like a scank and go out to a restaurant.

OK, thats it for now.....bedtime :) Oh, and Stef...have a drink for me at your party, i'll be there in spirit!

(9 Get Sexy)

Reality tv is my passion :) [20 Jul 2004|11:01pm]

Random comments on reality tv tonite:

I HATE SCOTT AND JASE!!! They are both the epitomy of EVERYTHING i hate in heterosexual guys. Blonde-highlighted, spiked hair, egotistical, look in the mirror more than me, care how they look above all else, think they are hot shit, work out just to boost self esteem, think only skinny ditzy blondes are cute....do i really need to continue??? ARGH!!! One of the non-4 horseman or ditzy blonde better win hoh, im serious. I cannot handle anymore of those 2 egotistical meatheads with their cocky attitude, seriously. Oh P.S...drew is still hot, and a good guy, and everything I would like in a boyfriend. Good looking, but doesnt think that he is, good christian values, so gorgeous, honest, not-cocky....did i mention how cute he is??? :) And i luv will too, i just wanna hug him :)

Amazing race was sad...i cried at the end...thats how much i get into these shows, but the ending with the relationship between father and daughter just made me cry and appreciate my dad. Someday, you will see me on that show, or some reality strategy show. Trust me. And if the mole comes back, watch out. Ok, ive done enough talking about reality tv.

tomorrow is the last day of work for the week :) then some down south sunshine :)

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[20 Jul 2004|04:36pm]

I hate having a job. Ive worked full time for almost 5 months now. I hate it. I cant do anything. I CANNOT wait to go back to school its unreal, id rather go to school than work, and thats kinda sad. Just a random thought.

14 days left of work!!!!!
3 days till Myrtle beach!!!!

BIG BROTHER AND AMAZING RACE ON TONITE!!! WATCH IT!! AND DREW IS STILL HOTTT!!!!!! :)

(3 Get Sexy)

[19 Jul 2004|03:09pm]

Take 10 people from your livejournal, and write about them. don't mention names, and don't tell them who you were actually talking about.

1.) Met you my first day in Ann Arbor, and you have continued to support me and encourage me through everything in college. It truly was a blessing to meet someone so like me, who I could always get along with.

2) My rock. The one person who has been there for me since I was little, who saw me through every single hard time in my life, and who gave me a shoulder to cry on. We got through every difficult time together, and I hope we still act like we do when we are 50 and have kids (me maybe). I love you with everything I have and you mean more to me than words can ever say.

3) Talking to you is liking talking the way I do. We seem to put words in eachothers mouths and say what the other person is thinking. I wish we were closer so we could hang out more often and have more SATC marathons!! P.S. Boys will always suck.

4) Meeting you last summer was very cool, and I'm glad you saved me from a huge crisis. I have fun when I am around you, and hope we can continue to hang out and go to bars more often where you can drink. Always look for the light at the end of the tunnel :)

5) Band never would have been the same without you. You made it bearable. We had a lot of fun together, drinking and complaining :) You truly are a great and beautiful person, and I hope someday you realise that too

6) My Survivor partner. No one I know besides my sis loves it like we do. You are 'supercool' and i hope we can hang out more our last year at school, and make fun of stupid trends and stupid things people should havegotten over in high school.

7) I have only known you for a short period of time, but you have made me feel so much better about myself. You make me smile all the time when i get messages from you or see you. Thank you so much for being that person, and i hope our friendship can continue to grow.

8) I can't begin to explain how much you make me laugh and how selfless of a person you are. Realise you will find someone and that you will reach your goals doing something you love. I care so much for you and hope we can stay close if we end up livng far apart.

9) I love how you are so up front and honest. You always bring a smile to my face and I love spending time with you. The past 2 summers have been so much fun knowing you and i hope we just continue to grow.

10) My drinking buddy for the past 3 years. I cant explain to u how much fun i had getting into so much trouble when we went out, they were the most scandalous and some of the best times of my life. We both have calmed down a bit, but i hope both being 21, we can now have these fun times at the bars.

(3 Get Sexy)

What a weekend :) [18 Jul 2004|09:44pm]

[ mood | exhausted ]

[ music | THE ESPYS!!! Tom Brady is hot!!! ]

So....this weekend was a little unpredictable, but for the most part, very enjoyable. After 2 days of being sick from work, I went in Friday morning, got my check and then met Erica and her Illinois freinds at Shogun (BEST FOOD EVER!!!!) I then headed out to the airport for my AGD Chicago trip w/katie, where I sat.....and sat....plane was delayed....sat...delayed again....waited. My flight was supposed to leave at 4:30, and by 7:30 when we still hadn't boarded, I said screw it and changed my plane to 7:30am the next day, because i was just not gunna wait there and waste my time. I drove to Ann Arbor to meet Erica and the camping gang at Cottage Inn, and then to Necto for my first gay club experience w/all the bois. I called Stef and Christine to come out, and Beth of course was inTroy, so Stef came to dinner, where i had fun, and a really strong cosmopolitan :) And i got to help Adam get to aa and see him for awhile--yay... Then we went to necto, where i wasnt feeling all the techno, but it was fun catching up w/aa people and dancing with everyone, and laughing and just having a good time. I truly enjoyed myself. Then I went to 1234 and stayed for about 3 and a half hours (got to see juf too!) I left for the airport at 6am, probly too late, as i got to the gate and they were already boarding. Got to CHicago, and met katie at the hotel at 9am. This would be such a long day...we went up and i showered and got ready for some Magnificient Mile shopping. We left at like 10:30am, and didnt get back till about 4:30. I walked so much and went into all these great stores, including the 6 floor original marshall fields!!! I bought a dress for formal next year marked down from $290 to $30!!!! Its beautiful and im so excited!!!

Then...to convention. Me and katie got all cute in our dresses and took the L to the Marriott. Oh, and all down Michigan avenue were alpha gamma delta banners saying 1904-2004, it was way cool!! We went in and met anna, had a good dinner, watched a cute fashion show and got to be a part of convention for a night (all i could afford) It was a great experience though, and we took pics and i got a cute rose vase as the centerpiece, and i bought a centennial blanket and a new alpha gam sweatshirt on sale. We took the L back to the hotel around 10 and i passed out after my 15 hour day. Can i just say I LOVE CHICAGO!!!!!! Its such a great big city!!! Grad school possibility?????

I woke up this morning and then went down michigan avenue to get breakfast and then got on my airport shuttle and went to ohare, sat on the runway, and got home around 6pm. Long, but great weekend!!! Thanks to everyone who had a part in it!!!

P.S. I missed big brother this weekend :(

***im sorry, but just understand where i am coming from, please. i luv u****

Myrtle Beach this weekend!!!!! Cant wait!!! And a 3 day work week this week, next week, then 2 more work weeks and I'm FREAKING DONE WORKING!!!!! YES!!!!!! :)

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[14 Jul 2004|03:07pm]

[ mood | lonely ]

I can't even speak about my feelings right now. They are everywhere. I wanted to use this LJ as a positive way for me to express myself. But its so difficult right now. I stayed home from work today with cramps, and i have to go to dale carnegie later. Being home alone and having nothing to do just makes me think about so many things. And I hate it, but i think its better to let feelings out then to keep them in.

1) I have no motivation for anything. I want to get skinner and healthier, but have no motivation to work out anymore. Its gone, because when I was doing it, nothing was really happening. Im so tired when i get home from work, and i know i should just go straight to the gym and work out, but i never want to. I think i am just going to have to try to accept myself as I am, but the problem is, the rest of the world always doesnt.

2) Friendships are hard. There are ups and downs, fake friendships and real friendships, friends of convenience and location, best friends, friends who call just to say hi, friends who invite you to go out, the list can go on forever. I just hope the friendships I have can survive the distance that they have gotten since January. I haven't really developed these relationships because I was gone, and immediately started working 9-5. I see happy people around me with these great friendships, but then I always have to work or am tired and cant go anywhere. Why does having a job mean that its hard to keep friendships strong?

3) Boys. One will come when I am least expecting it. I have that one figured out. I just wish people could include friends in their lives when they have someone. Friends will always be there, but it is no guarantee that a guy always will be, no matter how wonderful you may think he is. I am njoying spending time with someone every week. I have known him kind of for 3 years, but we are both really shy, and i dont think will ever be able to say how we feel, if that even is what we feel.

Three main things. My weight. Friends. Boys. ( and on a minor note: money and school) I am going to struggle with these three things for my whole life. And what is so hard is that they may seem simple, but struggling with them is SO difficult for me. I guess I am just expressing my journey right now. THanks for listening to how I feel.

***I seem to always have these deep entries because I just dont do anything. P.S. Drew on BB5 is way hot though***

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